Hunger hurts but starving works...

mood: blank

music: Wyclef Jean - If I Was President...

I told my Dad today that I am not going back to school in the spring, I am going to wait until the fall... lecture ensued. Not that I listen to him.... the only people I feel I have to listen to are those that give me money and help me out, and he's really not on that list anymore.

I've been holding something in for a while, and now I have to get it out, I am not upset if you guys don't read it

My Uncle John is dying from cancer.... he has 6 months at most. He moved to Maine a year ago and I haven't seen him since, and now I'll never see him again. He doesn't want visitors because he's afraid it will be too painful, but I want to see him. I never went to see my grandmother before she died, and I know now what a mistake that was.... But I know that he wouldn't be big, jolly, larger than life Uncle John anymore, and it's just so, so hard. I can't even make words to describe how I feel...